ALONE I STAND

Defeat piercing my soul with its sword;
I feel my insides shivering, quivering as I fight the pain.
I'm always amazed how life throws you a curve ball;
I'm losing this battle, I'm almost insane.

This wisdom I'm gaining I pay for it dearly;
But none of this for ignorance I would trade.
Single black mother with kids I must raise;
It is he that has taught me, to him I give praise.

Material possessions I have but a few;
Struggling, praying what else should I do?
Like strangulation my pride must succumb;
Moving in slow motion my body is numb.
When life starts to look up, Satan jumps on my back;
Trying to persuade me to veer off my path.

This game we call life only the strong will survive;
Lord help me to make it, I'm dying inside.
The only peace I know is up there with you;
I'm getting so weary I'm depending on you.

I know I'm not all that you want me to be;
But my heart is honest and loyal you see.
Sometimes I feel like the more that I try;
That life's rewards keep passing me by.

~Taffany Bickley~