Not
a mere wife
You pine for a lover
Who'll bring you new joy
Even though you know within
You'll just be his toy
You long for freedom
From your past sacrifice
Which turned you to wood
And your bed into ice
But will the external joys
Bring youth back to you
And undo all those things
You once volunteered to do
You gave too much
Without being asked
And in a simple "thank you"
Glowed and basked
Today those thanks
Feel like a slap
Thinking of the life you lost
When you walked into this trap
You chose the path
That you look back and rue
Yes, that's the bitter pill
And you know that it's true
But what's over is over
There is still a lot of life
So discover yourself
You're not a mere wife
Find the courage
To follow your star
Even if it takes you away
From your loved ones far
You've done what you could
And gave your family the best
It's time you gave yourself
A well-deserved rest
But be careful to look
Within and not without
It's you, you are seeking
Without a doubt
Don't walk into a trap
Like the one you leave behind
By giving yourself to someone
Just because he is kind
If in other eyes
Your reflection you seek
You are bound to falter
And become weak
Seek your own reflection
In the mirror you hold
To look for the spirit within
And not to see if you are old
You've wasted too much time
Wondering how a man looks at you
It's time you look at yourself
And love the person in view
Live for your own desires
Seek whatever pleasure you will
Make sure it's only for yourself
That you climb every hill
Be strong enough to know
Other clouds will ruin your day
Remorse will grip you
Wondering why you didn't stay
Time is not waiting
So don't tarry too long
To find yourself
You first need to be strong
Don't look for commitments
From others in pain
You have to make a path
Through this pouring rain
~Sumaitri~