Wayward Thoughts

Unbidden they creep in
Playing tricks on my mind
A friend and a woman
She is deep inside..

For heaven's sake
We are just friends
Why this nagging ache
Why this helplessness..

But what do I do
I can't help myself
A new feeling grew
The longing intense..

This constant missing
The need to be together
My mind says one thing
My heart wants to differ..

She drifts into my thoughts
Taking me unawares
Consciously I haven't sought
Still she is there..

It's hard to reconcile
This drift has no base
I don't want to lose her
There is so much at stake..

She means two different things
Both feelings strong
I feel torn in two
Might put a foot wrong..

Still it's a lovely feeling I have
Don't want to let it go
Both are precious to me
I want to be true to both..

She is just one person
But filling different needs
I wish I could tell her
All the things she means..

Wayward thoughts
Here and there
Like wisps of cloud
Getting tougher to bear.

~Madeira Aftab~

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