My House Of Glass
How much longer must I feel this unbearable pain
That surrounds my heart.. heavy with loneliness?
What lies ahead of me...more of wondering
About life...and of this cursed emptiness?
The place where I abide seems surrounded with glass,
A barrier, separating me from one I long to hold;
The one of whom has captured my aching and lonely heart,
Now painfully out of reach...the story is forever old.
My life is as in slow motion.. days are empty and long,
Each one that goes by is but another one forever lost;
The clock ticks on...my wall of glass grows stronger still,
Deep inside myself.. the knowledge.. I will pay the cost.
I watch, seeing all whom I love walking by, seemingly
Lost in their own little world.. not yet willing to heed
My silent, but deafening plea..."You out there, remember me?"
But only on deaf ears and hardened hearts falls my need.
My love feels my pain.. and it mingles with her own,
Unable to break the glass, in tears she helplessly looks on
As I struggle beneath the burdens I am forced to carry,
She turns.. and sadly walks away.. I watch until she is gone.
Is this what I have to look forward to? Is this all
There is to life? I pray in earnest to the One above;
Each day that I remain locked in this utter despair,
Longing only for a future with her.. one filled with love.
Only time will give me the answer I am searching for,
Our futures are in God's hands, only He has control;
In the meantime, I watch as my lonely world goes by,
Bearing the pain and loneliness that engulfs my soul.
Written for my special friend, Ron
~ Twilah ~