Like a Pendulum

 

Like a pendulum I oscillate

Swinging here, then right there

Loving you with a deep soothing joy

Then finding an ache that tears my gaze

 

I try hard to forget

Then try harder to remember

And keep you fresh

In the recesses of my heart

For it is only with your memories

That I can stay alive

 

Am well aware of all the reasons why

I should forget you

Why I should never look to you,

Or in your love vainly sigh;

And oft too I dredge my soul

Looking for a hint of my ego

And scold myself wondering

Where the self respect has fled

But, find only that,

Which I have long known of myself...

 

I know that when I love

I cannot reason

I cannot pretend

I cannot, not give

For it fills me so very completely

That living without it

Is unthinkable and impossible to believe

 

So like a pendulum I oscillate

From yearning for you

To being blissful,

From tears of need

To smiles that fill me from tip to toe,

And as the clock of life ticks along

So does the pendulum swing

And with it I swing in the never ending

Sway of my love...fulfilled and un-fulfilled

Sometimes replete sometimes painfully alone...

~Horizon~

 

2^nd Sept 2004

 

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