WHY ME

I couldn’t even kill you,

You were already dead

The only place you were alive

Was inside my head

Kept you alive,

Because, the thought of being alone filed me with dread.

Stoked the fires of your memories, to keep them alive.

Even though, you absence was all I felt by my side.

Your support was invisible, so were you.

Whenever I looked around, I never found you.

I hungered for your encouragement, it never came.

The only thing you were good at, was playing mind games.

You said, ‘This is me, I can’t change.”

But when I voiced the thought, you refused to accept the same.

You wanted everything, but never believed in returns.

When I asked for something, your back you turned.

But I guess someone like you, I had to meet.

To break my illusion, that all people are nice and sweet.

You showed me what the world really is about.

You taught me there should be less of trust and there should be more of doubt.

You showed me what reality is, the ugliness behind your mask,

But why did you do this to me, to “your best friend” is a question I still ask?

~Mayuri Sharma~