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Imposition
The façade
enshrouds me
Envelopes me,
clouds me
An impenetrable
wall
Surrounds and
protects me
An illusion of
emotion
Conceals my
thoughts
My eyes gaze out
From behind a web
of deceit
You think you
know me
But you only see
What I want you
to see
The mask has a
smile on it
It took me years
to craft it
You don’t even
notice
It isn’t real
The eyes have a
sparkle to them
I know, I put
them there
And you look at
me
And smile back
You can’t hurt
me
My shield is too
strong
I can barely move
beneath it
But I’m safe
You ask me how
I’m doing
Can’t you see
I point to my
mask
I’m doing fine
Something sad
happens
How should I
feel?
I have a mask for
that too
You still think
it’s real
It takes all of
my strength
To project the
illusion
Mend the cracks
Heal the scars
You try to break
down
My disguise with
your questions
And sometimes
You nearly break
through
My defenses are
strong
They have to be
Inside I am mush
Vulnerable, weak
So they will
protect me
Guard me
Control me
Censor me
They know
what’s best for me
I do not resist
The strings jerk
tautly
And I stumble
forward
They tell me when
to laugh
But it’s not my
laugh
It’s a cry for
help
Falling on deaf
ears
I grow weary
I’m losing my
strength
How can I
continue
To keep up this
façade?
I long to remove
This virulent
mask
But I don’t
remember how
And I am afraid
of what I will find
Beneath it
The walls seem
closer somehow
Smaller
I feel trapped
I can not breathe
I try to reach
out
Remember what it feels like
To feel
To love
But the mask is
in control now
No longer a smile
It bears a
sinister grin
…And you smile
back
Adam Wiemers
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