Main sonchta thaa
Ki main tumhe bahut pyaar kartaa hoon
Jab tum nahin hotee ho
Raaton raat jaagtaa hoon
Karvatein badaltaa rehtaa hoon
Jism mein suiyaan see chhubhtee
Rehtee hain
Bechainee ek junoon ki tarah
Chhaee rehtee hai
Aur main tardapta rehta hoon...

Savere mere dost ne bataya
Ki
 Is bistar mein bahut se khatmal hain

Main phir bhee sonchta raha ki
Tumhaare pyaar meini
Mujhe neend kyun nahin aatee
Khwaabon  mein tumhe dekhne
ka ehsaas hota hai
jab mujhe bijlee ka jhatka sa lagta hai
sari raat apne kaanon ke paas
aawaz si aatee rehtee hai
na so paata hoon.
na hi jaag paata hoon
aur ek tardpan ka ehsaas liye
bas tumhe yaad karta rehtaa hoon

Savere mere dost ne mujhe bataya
Is kamre mein bahut se machchar hain.

Maine kamra bhee badal liya hai
Aur bistar bhee
Ab na kamre mein machchar hain ,
na khatmal
lekin na jaane kyun main
raaton raat jaagta rehta hoon
karvatein badalta rehta hoon
na hee neend aatee hai
naa jaag paata hoon

Ab to mera dost bhee kutch nahin kehta
Shayad  main
 tumhe bahut pyaar karta hee houngaa

I used to think
That I love you too much
When you are not there
I keep awake for nights together
Keep on turning and tossing around
Feel being pricked by needles
Restless  as if obsessed
And I keep on being tormented

In the morning my friend tells me
There are too many bedbugs on this bed

I still kept on thinking
Why I can't sleep  being in love
I feel your presence in my dreams
Whenever I feel a current
passing through me
whole night I keep on hearing voices
around my ears
neither I sleep .nor do I keep awake
 and with a tormenting feeling in my chest
just keep on remembering you...

In the morning my friend tells me
There are too many mosquitoes in the room

I have changed the bed..
As well as the room
Now there are no mosquitoes in the room
Nor bedbugs in the bed
But still  I don't know why
I keep awake whole night
for nights together..
keep on tossing and turning
around in the bed
neither do I sleep
nor can I keep awake

Now even my friend
also does not say anything...

Perhaps  I might be loving you
too much
Afterall....!..!

~Mukul~

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