Hang On

Grasp my thoughts

Answers to all my questions

I search to find

What will the day bring?

Will I get through?

All of these questions

I'm so confused

Thoughts free flow

Some, I'm unsure what they mean

The more my curiosity grows

The more faith I loose

Hungry for truth

Waiting for change

Yet just because everything is different;

 Doesn’t mean anything has changed

Is it me, or am I only here to get knocked down

There are times when I think I've gotten back up

Yet to find I have only gotten up, to fall back down is a set back

My fears are screaming in my face

My confusion and doubts have all built this place

I'm treading this road with eyes wide shut

I ask hands of angels to help guide me along

There are times I think this all might break me

I just want out

Free from the world and all its hurt

Free from my doubts and fears

If you just look,

You will find

Everybody hurts

Everybody cries, everyone has problems

Yet not like me, not like mine

Every now and then I can feel the depths of the waters closing in

I hope when the time comes,

I know how to swim

I tell myself not to fall away

Hold on tight with all I have

Yet one of these days I'm bound to lose it all

I'm tired of giving all I have to give

While getting nothing more, nor 

Nothing less in return than disregard

I can't keep loosing sleep over this

I would have it all figured out,

If my mind would just stop pacing

My thoughts can't stand still in my mind

My doubts are chasing my faith

What is this I've been facing?

What did I do wrong

 To take me down this path?

I keep telling myself,

"You got to stick it out,

You have to last"

Where's my angel,

 Please help me mend my broken wings

Help me fly my way out of this thing

Not knowing where I'm headed,

But diving there head first

I think I've lost myself more than once

In the continuous search

Is this real,

Or is this a dream?

I believe I'm stuck somewhere in between

I don’t want to run away from this

But I don't know how else to fix it

I'm not letting myself go

Yet, there is so much I still don’t know

I have to remember that, "I can keep going long

After I can't"

But there's only so much one person can withstand

Right now all I need is just one helping hand,

So I talk to the angels

And ask just what went wrong?

I guess all that’s left to do now if just,

Hang on.

~Kristen~  

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